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9/4/2004
To day is a sad day in my life it has been over two months since I talked to the one I once loved so much. We
were in court on Sept 1,2004 and all she did was lie to the judge about me why well only she knows that. Shirley once told
me she all she wanted to be was be treated nice and treat people nice yet on the 1st she told the judge several lies. 1st
she told the judge I KILLED her kitten well I loved him and never hurt him and in fact he was my buddy and he was our kitten.
I loved the little guy and would of never hurt him no matter what Shirley is so wrong here why she said it I don’t know but
I never HURT our kitten. Shirley went on to tell the judge other things that hurt me so bad she even told the judge I laid
hands on her again when in fact it had been over 6 months since I made the promise never to do it again and I keep my promise
this time. I went to several adult abuse classes and have learned to control my anger do I still get mad yes can I control
it yes. I know I hurt her with nasty words some that I should of never said or used in any context regardless. I love Shirley
and she says I blame her for me losing my job of twenty one yrs well she did call the police and tell them things that we
could of worked out our self’s but I blame Roy Ott for what happen he did a illegal search of my property and he is the blame
more than anyone.
In December of 2003 Shirley blamed me for her not getting new glasses buy saying I had found her at
a abuse shelter when I was not even looking for her since we were trying to repair our relationship at the time. This hurt
me also to think she thought I was stalking her when I was not. There have been times when I done things that were wrong like
lying to her about things and I had a serious problem with internet porn and I know this hurt her it killed a marriage for
me from my 1st wife of 3 yrs. Someday I had hoped that that myself and Shirley would be come husband and wife in fact I had
gotten up money for her divorce but well that was not to be. I love her so much I did what ever I could to do to help her
why I will never know now but this much is for sure I do love her and would love her as a friend but never as a roommate again
but well I guess that will never happen. As I finish this letter I want to say I am so sorry if I hurt her and may she find
true love someday
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